I have been a cross dresser since i was very young, my mom caught me in my sisters diapers when I was 5 I dont remember that but do remember wearing my cousins panties when I was at my grandmas house and stealing panties anytime i could, If I was at your house your panties were not safe. I got caught in the girls bathroom in 6th grade getting a kotex from the machine....as i went through school i would steal panties then came bras and my sisters dresses were a perfect fit so when i got home from school i would dress up and piss all over myself and jack off...these should have been signs of what was to come...when i got married i threw all my girls clothes away, but that didnt work soon i was wearing my wife's panties and she heard me whisper during sex to pee on me, the rest is history she encouraged me to dress like a girl and she pissed on me often but eventually I became her full time toilet and was not allowed to use anything except my panties or a diaper to go to the bathroom, This all enhanced our sex life i loved being her toilet and soon found that when i wasnt diapered and pissed or shit myself in public that i really got off on the humiliation, My wife started  me on hormone replacement and i was seeing physical results....my favorite name to be called was sissy faggot although i had never had sex with a man and i was not excited by men...one day when i was 34 i went to work to find my wife at the office and i was told i was let go, when we got home my wife gathered up all my male clothes and took them out to the trash she also told me that i was to stay home from now on and take the domestic role.  I was really getting excited about finally being a girl, something i had longed for off and on for years. Next came my bedroom which use to be the den on one side I a canopy bed and white dressers with pink trim and it reminded of a teenagers room, but the other side i have a changing table and shelves of diapers, plastic panties and all sorts of baby stuff. that night at dinner i was told that i would sleep in my sissy room from now on and be Kimberly all the time and the boys life was gone and that included sex, I would still be her toilet but my dick would never be used again...its been 14 years and my tiny little dick never leaves my panties. My wife nw has several biyfriends that come over i give her what i never will again her favorite guy is jim and he wears a condom, not for protection from disease or pregnancy but so he can bring it to me and i drink his cum from it, thats when it started i was beginning to crave cock and had sucked a few due to the fact when men see you as a sissy girl they make you suck their cock, i didnt really like it but accepted my role, but now i crave men in my "pussy" and love to suck their cock and beg them to piss in my mouth. I told my wife i wanted to get the operation and become a full girl, she told me that i was a sissy toilet cock craving faggot and always will be not a girl but a sissy and thats the way i live with her boyfriends pissing on me when i am in bed and i can have men when i want but never again will i do anything with my wife or any other women except clean up their pussy when its filled with cum from a real man......this is not what i had dreamed of or ever wanted but I now see shes right.... for me sex is being used as a toilet by anyone who cares to use me and I am a sissy cumdumpster toilet faggot and i love mens cocks in my "pussy"